Your thoughts here really resonate with me a lot. I've been going through a similar period in my life. I actually wrote a piece about it a couple months ago if you're at all curious! https://medium.com/the-hub-pub/marijuana-and-me-12df6c52ba2d

It definitely seems as though we've had comparable experiences here. Today is actually my first day sober in a few weeks and I'm glad I ended up reading this piece today. For a couple months I've been experiencing this sudden and major lapse in clarity that seems most likely a result of the chronic weed use. Like you, I've been using the bong to stay content and comfortable for my entire adult life and even before. I've spent a month trying to isolate certain cannabinoids to see if I can reduce the side effects at all, but I've been slowly coming to the conclusion that I may just need to quit altogether. Great piece. Really happy you decided to share this one with Thought Thinkers.